Whitney Port Shares Miscarriage Heartbreak With Fans
Sad news out of the world of reality television today.
Whitney Port — most recently of MTV’s The Hills revival — has revealed in an emotional Instagram post that she’s suffered a miscarriage.
Port married Tim Rosenman in 2015, and the couple welcomed a son named Sonny in 2017.
Just weeks ago, Port learned that she was pregnant — and not long thereafter, she was informed that she would be unable to carry the child to term.
While that’s always heartbreaking news, Port’s candor is something of a silver lining, as she’s been discussing the incident openly, as well as the wide array of emotions she felt as a result.
And we’re guessing many women are feeling less alone as a result of her words.
On Tuesday, Port posted a video of herself discussing the miscarriage during an appearance on her With Whit podcast.
While she was obviously devastated by the loss of the fetus, she admits that she was suffering severe anxiety about the prospect of another pregnancy, particularly considering the complications she experienced while carrying her first child:
“The amount of various emotions I felt in the past couple weeks have been extreme…from shock to sadness to relief, which then led to guilt for feeling that relief,” Port said.
“My identity has been shaken in regards to who as a mom and human being,” the 34-year-old continued.
“I’m currently in the process of learning to accept that my feelings are valid no matter what they are. Whether or not people feel the same way as me or not.
“They are my personal emotions that are the result from my own journey.”
Port says the early weeks of her second pregnancy were intense and she braced herself for the complications she experienced the first time around:
“What’s weird is that I was having massive pregnancy symptoms for the first six weeks, I was really nauseous and really exhausted,” she shared with listeners.
“And all of the sudden they kind of just stopped, and I was like, ‘Oh my God, maybe the second pregnancy is gonna be amazing and I’m not gonna feel all this crap that I felt.'”
“And I was really thinking glass half full at that moment.”
“I feel like I’m not pregnant.” Whitney recalls telling her husband, adding that she wasn’t experiencing “any symptoms anymore.”
“We went to go get an ultrasound and my doctor said things didn’t look good but that it was still kind of too early to tell,” Whitney said on her show.
“And he said to wait it out. It felt so horrible to be in this limbo position.”
“We ended up going back to the emergency room for a second time because the bleeding got worse,” Port revealed.
“And we got confirmation that my blood level was at a 3,000 and at the point I was in my pregnancy it’s supposed to be at about 10 to 20,000, and we found out that there was no heartbeat and there should’ve been a heartbeat at that point.”
Whitney went on to admit that she’s surprised by some of the emotions she’s experienced in the two weeks since the miscarriage occurred:
“I can’t say I feel relieved,” Whitney said.
“I feel sad because the whole thing is just traumatic, it’s traumatic to think about your body going through this and something being in you that could have been someone like a Sonny or something,” she added.
“I feel sad but, I do also feel happy that my body is still my own right now and that this isn’t an extra thing we didn’t plan for.”
As for whether or not she and her husband will try again for a second child, Port says that remains undecided
“If this happens on its own, then amazing, it is meant to be and we will have a second child. And if it doesn’t happen, then we’ll discuss it when we’re both ready to have it,” she says.
Port admits to still feeling “scared” about the prospect of another pregnancy and says she experienced mixed emotions after learning that her pregnancy was not viable.
“I felt extremely ashamed and guilty that I felt this way,” Whitney said.
“And so, these layers of shame and guilt make it so hard to talk about.”
We can see why Whitney would feel confused by her own emotions.
But we’re guessing millons have felt the same, and no doubt many of them are glad that she shared her story.